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Nine inch Nails [05 Jul 2008|07:31am]
tmg1_as_0
I know rhythmbox isn't scrobbling it, but I'm listening to Nine Inch Nails again.

2007 is suddenly nostalgic. How did that happen?
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Ode to friends [05 Jul 2008|01:45am]

bludgasm
Check out my friends )
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Tweets for Today [04 Jul 2008|10:12pm]

elligirl

11:24 @KrisMadison looks like you're not the only one tinyurl.com/6jxe6l #

13:04 weird.. my IM buddy list is so empty today! No Americans online, I guess! #

20:21 I got my bbq done just as the clouds started looking serious! Mmmm steak and mexican grilled corn and cheese peppers! #

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The New Casualty [04 Jul 2008|09:15pm]

l2oto
Nobody talks about deaths in Iraq as much anymore.

While I'm not trying to justify it, the fact is that apparently battlefield medicine is a lot more effective now than it used to be. But all that means is that more soldiers come home, wounded or not.

But what people are talking about are the mental health issues. The PTSD sufferers. THESE are the wounds we inflict on our soldiers and marines.

You're only dead once. PTSD is every day, for the rest of your life. So many of our soldiers and marines suffer from it that more of them are killing THEMSELVES than ever before, just to find peace. What kind of war is that?

The burden of the memory of war will weigh far heavier on this generation, because, unlike in wars past, most of the ghosts of the dead will walk among us instead, haunted by our country's mistakes. Instead of a name on a wall, we will have living bodies, broken minds, infrequently told stories, and daily struggles borne by the soldiers and marines in our families.

Perhaps then our memories will not be so dim.
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"Your dead baby is in the fridge." [05 Jul 2008|02:55am]
tmg1sdotfriends
Some people are upset that Henry Morgentaler, the doctor who forced the law to recognize womens' rights to an abortion, got an Order of Canada award. Let me tell you a true story ... Way back when, I was with someone, she got pregnant, and spontaneously aborted at 8 weeks. When she gave me the news, I made the appropriate noises ... but in the back of my mind I was thinking "Thank gawd! She's been acting kind of squirrely lately, and this was a *HUGE* mistake." (cue Twilight Zone theme music) Later on, I poked my head into the fridge to get some stuff while preparing supper, and I saw a little red ball, smaller than your thumbnail, in saran wrap. It looked like a small clot of bloody snot. You know, like what you see when you blow your nose on a dry winter day ... "What's this?" "Our baby." She had fished it out of the toilet. What the FUCK do you say to THAT? I wanted to say that maybe she should have just pulled the chain and given "Junior" a burial at sea ... ... but I didn't. Gotta be careful dealing with them crazies ... It sat there for two weeks, beside the milk. In front of the ketchup. Not even in the freezer, like Walt Disney ... I ended up nicknaming it "The Blob". One day it disappeared. I thought that she had finally thrown it out. Stupid me. I shouldn't have been so optimistic. Try "buried in the back yard" ... Dogs like digging ... No wonder she hated Bear ... she was thinking "Your dog ate my baby!" And people wonder why I think the anti - abortion - every - embryo - is - a - real - person - and - must - be - saved - at - all - costs crowd is just a wee bit off their rocker ... Forget all those "Choose Life" pictures, or the jars they haul around ... go dig up a fresh 8-week-old blob. Maybe, if you stare at it long enough, you *might* convince yourself that you're looking at a person. Then again, I hear that if you stare at a grilled cheese sandwich long enough, and you really, REALLY want to, sometimes you'll see Jesus.
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gyrlcentric: @michelleness no doubt! I don't think anyone else could have pulled it off [05 Jul 2008|02:32am]
gyrlbrattwitter
gyrlcentric: @michelleness no doubt! I don't think anyone else could have pulled it off
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gyrlcentric: @michelleness I agree. I would like to know how long george has been dreaming of throw [05 Jul 2008|02:27am]
gyrlbrattwitter
gyrlcentric: @michelleness I agree. I would like to know how long george has been dreaming of throwing that particular twist there :)
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gyrlcentric: @michelleness we enjoyed it :) [05 Jul 2008|01:59am]
gyrlbrattwitter
gyrlcentric: @michelleness we enjoyed it :)
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2 Sense News [04 Jul 2008|07:41pm]

2_gryphon
I'd like to apologize for the delay in the 2 Sense Shows. For those of you who know the craziness that is AnthroCon, you'll hopefully understand. But just to let you know, 2 Sense will be back next Wednesday as usual.

Now, a tough subject.

A few of you have been asking what has happened to Nik. It's been quite a while since he hosted the show with me. I'd really been leaving it to him to decide the level of publicity he wanted on the subject and he has decided to bring it to the attention of everyone. He made a post about it here...

http://nikvulper.livejournal.com/164380.html

So since he's apparently comfortable with letting everyone know, I'll tell you what really happened.

First off, I'm not going to go into past drama between he and I because that's just petty shit and has nothing to do with the subject at hand. The simple fact is that for the past half a year or so, Nik and I haven't gotten along very well. Ultimately, I kicked Nik off the show. He didn't leave on his own, and in fact expressed to me that he wanted to continue doing them. So don't blame Nik. This is my own doing.

There are a great many things that I respect Nik for, but there are also some core values (or lack thereof) he has that I am completely at odds with. He's very quick witted, which is what caused me to want him for the show in the first place. However, our senses of humor just don't agree. It was only a few months before I realized that most of his jokes had been regurgitated from old movies and Scrubs episodes, or were in-jokes that only he and a couple other people understood.

Often, when he was on the show, he would delay the recording of the show while he had a second dinner or something and, perhaps it shouldn't have affected me that much, but it did become frustrating.

However, these things alone weren't enough to make me want to put Nik off the show.

A couple of episodes into the latest season, I called Nik to come and do the show. Jibba had asked to be there to watch, and since Nik was going to be ready around the time Jibba was getting here from work, I didn't see a problem with anything.

Now, here is the part Nik left out of his post. I had made a mistake that night. I thought Nik was going to be ready later than he said he would. So when he called, I asked if we could wait for Jibba. At this point, Nik threw a fit. He said he felt *degraded* to have to wait for Jibba. He felt upset that I never informed him when Jibba's shows would be recorded, even though he never ASKED me to let him know... just expected to be told.

At this point, I tried to accommodate him and I told him to forget Jibba and that we could do the show whenever he wanted to. I invited him over right that very moment if that's what he wanted. But this was summarily ignored. In response, he outright refused to do the show at all! He said he just didn't feel like it anymore. Luckily, Jibba dutifully put off the plans he had for the night and filled in for Nik.

Now, I realize that even without going into irrelevant past crap, this is STILL some drama. And I apologize for that. I don't hate Nik. Nik is not a dumbass or a moron or a retard. In fact, I do believe that Nik is the first person I can remember whom I've disliked and still had respect for in my life. But in my opinion, when it came to the 2 Sense Show, he was something of a primadona. There are piles of people out there who would love to have his position. And for him to just refuse to do the show because of some silly little thing like this... well, that's something I just don't need and can't work with. In my opinion, he did not enjoy or appreciate his job on the show enough to keep it. And in the end, that and only that, is the reason he's not being asked back to do more shows.

Now, I know a lot of you out there enjoyed Nik co-hosting, and I'm sorry about this. But so much tension has grown between Nik and I that it simply wouldn't be possible for us to work together in an entertainment capacity.

If you would like to send letters to Nik and let him know how much you enjoyed his work on the show, or even to tell him how buggered I am for putting him off the show, I'm sure he would appreciate it very much. One thing I do know about Nik is that during the time he was on the show, he very much appreciated your letters and knowing that he was entertaining you.

In any case, that's what happened. But, as the old saying goes, the show must go on.
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July 4th, 2008: Jesse Helms is dead [04 Jul 2008|11:10pm]
tmg1sdotfriends
Today, on the birthday of this great nation, we are all a little more free.
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An Accretion of Discretion [04 Jul 2008|11:29am]

l2oto
There's been tons of great things happening to me lately, but they're all pretty personal. For some, it's sad that the whole society frowns on it. For others, it's a reasonable request from specific people I'm happy to oblige.

But I wonder if the reason the world has at times looked so bleak is that we keep our joys to ourselves. As if they were fluids to be divided into containment units, and hoarded.

Joy is not a fluid - it's a gas, gas, gas! It expands into whatever volume it finds itself, shaped by whatever walls we impose upon it. The ease with which joy adapts to its environment is a virtue - and a weakness. It makes it endlessly flexible, but at the same time it acquiesces to any attempt to suck it right out of the air.

Then they bottle it, dope it with dextrose and nicotine, and sell it back to us like we can only get it from them.

Happiness is not patented. Evolution gave it to us, and while we have hijacked our neurochemistry and repurposed it so completely that our genes are doubtless flailing in flat panic at how the street we live on has found its own uses for us, we own them. There's no need to go where we're going the same way we got here, and besides - it doesn't get the gas mileage.

Random enough for you?
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happy 4th, fuckers [04 Jul 2008|10:28am]

ronin_lethe
[ mood | bitchy ]

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Robert D. Steele gave 5 stars to: Secondhand Lions (New Line Platinum Series) [04 Jul 2008|04:35pm]
robertsteelerev

Robert D. Steele reviewed:

Secondhand Lions (New Line Platinum Series) DVD ~ Michael Caine
 
5.0 out of 5 stars Utterly Brilliant, Suibtle Detail, Heartwarming, July 4, 2008
I have watched this DVD several times, and each time I find new details that enthrall.

This is a truly heartwarming movie that I used to push back against the crushing weight of reality, a reality I do not control.

The two super-actors are at their best, but the young man who stars as the son of the gad-about lady is the real star. His smile, his behavior, are Oscar material.

Don't mis the dogs, the pig, and the lion. This is a "top ten" movie.

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More from the childfree community [04 Jul 2008|04:01am]

lin_chan
[ mood | tired ]

Apparently a woman in Brisbane let her 18month old twins starve to death and nobody found the bodies for a while until her 10yr old daughter found them and said something like
"Now I know why you've been crying, Mum."

And instead of wondering what brand of schizophrenia she has and where her medication disappeared to, the CFers are simply wondering why she didn't get help!
Saying things like
"I can maybe understand telling yourself you can handle it if it's just your life, but not when it involves someone else's life too."

So why didn't she just get help?
Well, lets think about that, hm?
By definition 'help' is something you can't do yourself, right? 
She very well could have asked for help.  Probably did.  It mentions she had an online journal where she reportedly mentions that she's 'losing it'. 

They say "get help" like it's so easy.
People, help doesn't always come.  Not even when you want to kill yourself, and your husband is working 80hr weeks,
and your insurance company conveniently lost the phone conversation where they recommended your doctor to you and now they want you to pay for the pregnancy out of pocket, and you're caring for a newborn who won't nurse and you wonder if you'll be able to afford the formula, and you haven't slept for three days and when you did it was for three hours, and the baby is still screaming.
Not even when all your extended family loves you.
Not even when you're active church members and you ask your bishop for it.

I think the only reason I didn't die or end up completely broken and unfit to care for Bina in those early months was because it just wasn't an option.  She needed me, Oliver needed me, God says he doesn't give you more than you can handle, (so suicide would be kind of like calling God a liar, and that's a quick way to jeopardize your status in the afterlife..), and however overwhelmed and "the living dead" I was, I didn't have the luxury of giving up.  There were those moments in the middle of the nursing nightmare and not sleeping where I briefly thought I could feed her hot chocolate, or something similarly absurd, but luckily the lapse in rational thought didn't last long enough for me to go through with it.

I'm afraid of babies now.
I'm scared that when I see one, the mother will ask me to watch him for a minute
because I'm already a mom myself, and then he'll start screaming bloody murder and I'll have no idea what to do for him, and she'll take her baby back and wonder about what I did to him and what kind of monster I am.

Uhmm, no, keep your babies to yourself, thanks.  I can see he's cute from here.

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Rewreck [03 Jul 2008|11:22pm]

l2oto
So, yeah, I'm really planning to hit Wreck Beach on Sunday, July 13. I hope to see everyone and anyone there. And by see, I mean SEE! Er, heh. Birthday suited (as I expect to be, despite my birthday being on the following Tuesday. But don't let that stop you! ;p).
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Tweets for Today [03 Jul 2008|10:13pm]

elligirl

21:56 I kissed a girl and I liked it... LOVE this song!! tinyurl.com/5654sz #

21:57 @surfsearcher FoxIt Reader is a life saver :) #

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WC 1643 < 2000 [03 Jul 2008|09:11pm]

sean_kennedy






...and some of those words I should have never wrote.

End Of line.
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Transhuman Kimiko concept Art [03 Jul 2008|04:29pm]

dresdencodak


Return of the sketch blog!
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Spank! [03 Jul 2008|03:55pm]

elligirl

Spank!, originally uploaded by Canadian Elligirl.


A little freeze frame from my newest video!

Have you seen my Canada Day video yet? No? Well, why not!


~ Elli
elligirl@gmail.com
my Adults Only photos: http://www.ElliNude.com

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Tweets for Today [02 Jul 2008|10:11pm]

elligirl

11:43 Attn Canadians: New DUI laws start TODAY! tinyurl.com/6nrw64 #

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